Luther Vandross - Dance With My Father
Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me
And then spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me and I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree to get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep, he left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door and I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me, I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much but could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually but dear Lord, she’s dying to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
melodic midweek
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Labels: music
Monday, August 25, 2008
the weekend that was aug 23-25
I started Saturday early. 8:30 AM pa lang, namalantsa na ko until afternoon. Irvin and I took a nap, then prepared for going home at Tanza right after dinner. But then the rain held us up for a couple of hours, and we left. I spent the night in front of my computer, customizing my blogsite, playing with Kishie and watching a GMA documentary, "Batang Kalabaw."
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Labels: family, food, out-of-town, weekend
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
lex kulet 5
Lex: Daddy, wag mo palo si Kayon! Baby pa siya, di pa nya alam 'yun!
Lex: Kaninong baon yan?
Mommy: Sa akin.
Lex: 'Pag di mo ubos yan, palo kita!
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Lex: Mommy, babalik na ba tayo sa Church Avenue? (dito nakatira sila Ate Irene)
Mommy: Hindi na tayo babalik dun, Lex. Dito na tayo nakatira.
Lex: Baket? Pinalayas na tayo ni Mama Irene?
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Labels: pamangkins
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
the weekend that was aug 16-18
Maaga akong gumising dahil pupunta kami ng aking friendship Agnes sa Divisoria, ang lupain ng murang bilihin at mga kargador na hubad-barong nakikipagkiskisan ng balat sa mga tao. Inagahan na namin dahil Sabado at kasusuweldo lang ng mga tao. (Baka feel nilang maglustay ng datung, di ba?) On time sana ako, kaso kailangan ko pang pag-ibigin ng tubig si Irvin dahil naging kulay iced tea ung lumalabas sa gripo. Ayun, late na naman tuloy ako. (Excuses!)
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Labels: birthdays, friendship, sentiments, shopping, weekend
Friday, August 15, 2008
the (un)forgettable song
It is not my habit to put on my obsolete iPod whenever the radio is on. I want undivided concentration, I don't want to listen to two songs at a time.
But last night is different, as soon as I got on the shuttle service and heard the song being played, I grabbed my iPod, turned it on and increased the volume. The rock song in my iPod drowned the mellow song on the radio. Good.
Just when I believe I am done with the forgive-and-forget thing, something reminded me that I am not. Forgive? Yes. Forget? No. But let me tell you, not forgetting does not mean not moving on. What I am saying is that bad memories have a way of getting out of the to-forget box when a thing of the past goes on cue. As the cliché goes, past is past. I have moved on. But I have not forgotten.
A few years back, I must admit I was selfish. I do not want to share the precious things I have to anyone else. That selfishness shattered the glass I was holding, it hurt my hands and I bled. And someone came with a first aid kit, stopped the bleeding and kissed the pain. After quite some time, all that is left is a scar. That scar serves as a faithful reminder that I have been hurt and I have been saved.
Yet, I am not ready to sing that song.
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Labels: sentiments
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
angel in despair
I used to be an angel personified. I was someone who radiates happiness, whose kind words would always echo to someone's ears. I was smiling all the time, even at strangers. People sought my presence for some enjoyable conversation. I was someone who is willing to extend help to anyone who needs it. I was a shallow person, laughing at silly questions and petty jokes.
But not anymore. Happiness has eluded me for quite some time now.
I feel it and I hate it. It is as though hundreds of Dementors have gone from Azkaban to snatch the bliss out of me. And I am now empty, drained and miserable.
The heartbroken angel appears dejected with head down, halo in hand, tattered gown and steady wings. It never crossed my mind that an angel might need rest sometimes. I never thought one could get tired of happiness.
In the comfort of darkness, I seek pleasure. In my barren world, I look for hope. Amidst tears, I begged for happiness. I uttered silent words, some half prayers. And I wanted to shout and to cry out loud, wishing some mortal would hear me and comfort my desolate soul.
Maybe, just maybe, that one of these days, the angel in me would come to life - with wings spanned and flapping, with halo round and glistening, with face raised and smiling.
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Labels: sentiments
Sunday, August 10, 2008
the weekend that was aug 9-10
Hubby and I are now staying at Tanza, with his family. On his way to work, Irvin dropped me at my parents on Saturday morning. Got a lotta' chores to accomplish that day. So all the while, I was working on a chore, while having nonstop chat with Nanay. (You know, we are good at it - chatting nonstop, hehe). Waited for Irvin to come home and when he got home, we shared a simple lunch prepared by Nanay (who else?). And I, once again, was alone with Nanay doing arranging stuff (while chatting, of course). I attended mass with Irvin and went to Mercury Drug to buy pinipig crunch. And there we are, just like before, some 6 or 7 years ago.
Unlike the usual Sundays, we woke up early today because we found a lipat-bahay truck we can rent and move our things to Tanza. We were lucky enough to get enough help from: Enald, my brother in law; Edgie and MJ (collectively known as Friendster boys) and Anther (bumangga giba), now neighbors; Noel, kumpare; and Epoy, ex-colleague and Enald's friend. Seems all are excited, they had no idea what's waiting for them.
We were on a truck, me and Irvin on the passenger side while the rest of the boys were comfortably enjoying the wind and the sun. Arriving at the house, the plight of stairs leading to the 4th floor seems okay. But when they got to the top, complaints started coming in. Har har! Gotcha' boys! What's worse? They have to repeatedly go up and down, bringing TV, TV rack, ref, laundry stuff, computer set (complete with the rack), groceries and a whole lot of other things. We cleaned the area and moved out. The boys were tired, Irvin and I hoped the tuna sandwich was enough for them to recover their strength.
We got to Tanza and unloaded the stuff, went home to Rosario for lunch (lechon kawali and sopas, wow), met Norly's friend, then headed back to Tanza to arrange our things. Today is a tiring day.
We have moved out and moved in. We're moving on.
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Labels: weekend
Thursday, August 7, 2008
kanino nagmana si lek?
norly1230 says:
anu b chika jan
norly1230 says:
hoy bruha san k n
ang sweet naming magkapatid, no?
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norly1230 says:
Hey, Go to the Hole!
norly1230 just sent you a Buzz!
I say:
anu b, sinabi ng training e!!!
go to the hole-in mo'ng mukha mo!
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I say:
hooooy
I say:
bat nawala ka tinatanong pa kita!!
norly1230 has signed back in
norly1230 says:
hoy k din
another sweet moment, nakakainggit no?
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norly1230 says:
neng alam mo gustong gusto tlg kita n mkuha, tsaka cla nnay at ttay... ky lng eto nging hampas lupa ako dito sa canada
norly1230 says:
buti pa jan sa pinas, myaman ang tingin sa akin
hampas lupa?! baka naman, hampas SNOW!
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norly1230 says:
libre nman dito lahat... konting butlig, pptingin agad. cguro sbi ng family doctor nmin, OA kmi
I say:
hahaha!
I say:
baka i-ban na kayo
nag-text nga 'yung doctor nyo e, kung kelan daw kayo babalik dito sa 'pinas...
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Labels: family, pamangkins
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
just in time
This (lonely) Agot Isidro song has been playing on my mind for like a week now. I know I badly need some cheering up and a good laugh...
Don't know how to mend my broken heart
Guess I couldn't be so smart
So I called on You
And Your love have seen me through
You know in my life
I have always been afraid
Crying at my own mistakes
'Though I know You are a shoulder I can lean on
When I'm hopeless and in times of desperation
And when I come to reach a point when I'm about to lose my mind
You were there for me just in time
Lord, I need Your love
I need You by my side
I know You are a shoulder I can lean on
When I'm hopeless and in times of desperation
When I come to reach a point when I'm about to lose my mind
You were there for me just in time
You were there for me, came and set me free
Now you're here with me just in time
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Labels: music
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
cluttered (nonsense) thoughts
1. I don't feel like working this minute, so I'm composing this post. It's 1:23 PM.
2. Mukhang matutuloy kami ng mga in-laws ko sa Baguio. Yehey!
3. Nakakatamad talaga 'pag umuulan, ang hirap pang sumakay pauwi.
4. Um-order ako ng Marsha's Bibingka at longganisang Ilocos sa teammate ko, ang sasarap.
5. Ang hirap makipag-usap sa mga Singaporean, iba ang English nila.
6. Medyo OT ako mamaya, closing na e.
7. Hindi ko pa nalalagay ang picture ng bago kong pamangkin dito sa workstation ko.
8. Paano kaya mag-publish ng paid blog? Para maging stay-at-home wife na lang ako.
9. Kapag stay-at-home wife na ako, magluluto ako ng madami at masarap na pagkain.
10. Ano'ng pinapakinggan ko ngayon? Dream On by Aerosmith.
11. Chat boxes: work - Bell, Karlo, JJ, Harvey, Mich, Joy, Doreen; personal - Agnes, Irvin, Ate.
12. Sana bagay 'yung in-order kong damit kay Mich. Hehehe!
13. Walang nagte-text. Wala ng nagmamahal sa kin.
14. I'm broke but I'm happy.
15. Harry Potter!
16. Looking at my left, ano meron? Calendar, calculator, puncher, paper and binder clips, mga susi, toothpaste and toothbrush.
17. Ang dami ko pang ipo-post na pics sa Multiply ko.
18. Ang dami kong utang, sana makabayad na ko. Hahaha!
19. Malapit na ang fiesta ng Tanza, yes!!!
20. Paano kaya 'yung ticket sa E'heads concert?
21. Snuggle with Irvin.
22. Sana masarap ang free dinner mamaya, hehehe!
23. Ba't mahina na ang benta ng Victoria's Secret ko?!
24. Kelan kaya ako papayat?
25. Nakakatamad pero back to work na. It's 1:50 PM.
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Labels: thoughts
Sunday, August 3, 2008
the weekend that was aug 2-3
I started the morning early, packing things and some net surfing. I spent most of my morning chatting with Ate and Norly and Ate Irene and the kids. Missed them again!
We went home to Tanza first, borrowed Ate Sette's car, then to Rosario, ate lunch, then we picked up the balikbayan box from Ate's in-laws. Yahoo! There were lots of goodies, yum yum! Plus 3 sandals and a Roots bag for me. Ganito pala feeling ng may kapatid sa ibang bansa! Hmmmm…amoy isteytsayd ang bahay namin na sa sandaling oras e nagmukhang tindahan ng PX goods! Nanay and Tatay were more excited than I am. I recalled Tatay saying, "First time kasing may magpapadala na sariling kadugo ko e…" O ha!
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